New Beginnings....

Several weeks of morning sickness, two pregnancy tests, two doctor's appointments, lots of anxiety and one very positive ultrasound later....it seems to be official...I'm pregnant!

But....I'm not in a huge, huge hurry to tell folks just yet. (So, blondie, why in the hell are you telling the internet?) Because I can....and because the inside of my uterus has never fascinated me so much.

So far, we've only told his brother/sister-in-law and my bestest friend from high school, while soon-to-be-daddy is struggling a little wondering why I don't want to shout this from the rooftops.

I'm just being cautiously optimistic while I get my own head in the game. Next step: figuring out how and when to tell people....beyond that - there's lots more, but I'm going to go day-to-day with this for a little while. :)

Until then - it looks like the real excitement begins in November. More soon.....

It's Official!

Can't write much now....but I can say it's official and it's good. :) Stay tuned! :)

All Mixed Up, But Somehow Not.

What's a girl to think when:

• she's got a lot going on in her personal life
• her ex sends an e-mail that says, "you home tonight?"
• she is in the most incredibly loving, supportive and fantastic relationship ever

She thinks:

• she is giving it all over to God and will trust that things will work out as they are supposed to work out.
• she tells him that she needs some space and asks him to respect that (while simultaneously and very genuinely praying that he makes his own peace with his decisions)
• she concentrates on being grateful for the amazing human bean in her life - and for the fact that the above-mentioned-ex's decisions led her down a path which brought her to this amazing man and their fabulous relationship.